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The Epsilon Kiss, Never Touches

Just gets closer and closer

Each time just halfway there

Closer and closer

 A small positive infinitesimal quantity

1/2, 1/4th, 1/16th, 1/32nd, 1/64th etc.

 However, IT Never Gets There

The Epsilon Kiss 

Purple Spotlight on Lexa Credo Darnes

Purple Spotligh ton Lexa Credo Darnes

Stretching yawning like a cat

More feline than mammal

Moonshine LaLUNA

CHRISTMAS IS COMING TO CALI

(I WAS THINKING OF MAKING A SONG OF OUT OF THIS)  2008

Crisp cool morning and warm sunshine

Evergreens. the smell of leaves and earth

On with the day, take my daughter to school and then myself on to work

Jump on the 80 freeway, peek at the Bay

Commute with the traffic

Music blastin and a smile on my face

Cause Christmas is coming to Cali

Planning my work

Office is challenging

Business curve upwardly mobile

Baby’s at school

Chilling with her BFFs

Learning and growing up cool

Dollars are tight

Soon they will flow

This much I thoroughly know

Throughout this year

We have our family some near and some far

Colorado to Florida

Texas and New York

Some we will see this Holiday Season

Those who passed on we will not

We wish you peace

May your heart be fulfilled

With LOVE

Cause Christmas is coming to Cali!

We’ve had joy in our hearts

Mostly naughty, partly nice

Cause Christmas is coming to Cali

In this Wednesday, Feb. 20, 2013, photo,lights are turned on along the western half of the San Francisco-Oakland Bay Bridge on Pier 14 in San Francisco. The San Francisco-Oakland Bay Bridge has been turned into the latest, and by far the biggest, backdrop for New York artist Leo Villareal, who has individually programmed 25,000 white lights spaced a foot apart on 300 of the span’s vertical cables to create what is being billed as the world’s largest illuminated sculpture. (AP Photo/Jeff Chiu)

MOMENTAAAS

You are the moon, the stars and all that is bright

Attracted to you like lost souls towards the light

Smooth velvety Merlot wine, black Angus beef and music for falling in LOVE

Conversation flowing, talking and laughing

Taking our time, this time.

It’s NOT just ABOUT ME

Everything that I do, I do with thoughts of loving you.

As I go about my day I think “do everything the right way”.

From a girl to a lady then a mother/woman.

Sweet secret smiles of how we’d care for one another

A small one, just like me, when things were right it would come to be.

NOW THERE IS MORE THAN ME-WE ARE NOW – A FAMILY.

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Don’t take it for granted, I’ll be here

She’ll be somewhere close, she’s never far.

In thought and spirit, I’ll be near.

All it takes is a phone call and I’ ll jump in my car.

Marriage- is a commitment based on trust (and love). I gave you all the best of me, and then I gave you a little bit more. It was easy and natural. I could be myself and try some thinks that I always wanted to try, cause I was safe with you. We explored and had big fun. Decadent and Opulent, rich and yet opaque. Sweet and then kinda tart.  The drama was to the maximum when it presented itself. I was put to all the tests! Things I vowed to never do, I did and now accept?

Note to self: NOPE…Not me.”;-)

ERA (2008) TRUST

It’s a very fine line, just like the line between LOVE and HATE.

It’s hard to step back over that line, once you’ve been on the other side. Do you think it’s possible?

The Treasures of Life

The power to hold so much life-the power to destroy

The ebb and high tide. The erosion of the shore. A foamy green or sometimes a crystal blue. There is something calming about bodies of water. (PACIFIC OCEAN, SF Bay).

You are used to spending time alone, and frankly so am I, If I wasn’t familiar with that feeling ALONE…I would be again, feeling that feeling. Like an island-surrounded with ocean as far as the eye can see. Something about all that water..makes you think about the wonders within.

MANIFESTO-Be POSITIVE SWEET, KIND AND CLEAR OF PURPOSE (CLARITY AND SERENITY)

CREDO-I BELIEVE

2/23/13 (era 2010?) A note on a heart shaped sticky from the journal:

Everything happens for a reason -no accidents. Who knows why the phone rang that day. What were the odds when it happened? How were the stars aligned that day? And, is this the right time for us? So many questions why I feel the way I feel. Bliss in the moment-so many smiles brought to face when remembering those little moments we’ve shared already. It feels as if we have known each other for a very long time.  Or maybe it’s just that I want to share a lifetime of LOVE, “;-)

NOTES: This famous hanging “the Lady and the Unicorn” was woven towards 1500, in the Flandres, cradle of the tapestries in the Middle-Age. This entirety, composed of six tapestries, was discovered in 1841, following the sale of the castle of Boussac where these hangings were. Since 1882, they have been preserved at the Museum of the Middle-Age (Museum of Cluny, Paris), in a large round room. The imposing size of the tapestries, approximately 3,5×3,5m, make this hanging particularly imposing and attractive. These tapestries were woven with silk and wool threads, with more than 5 warp threads per centimetre.

More to note and ponder:

The Lady and the Unicorn (FrenchLa Dame à la licorne) is the modern title given to a series of six tapestries woven in Flanders of wool and silk, from designs (“cartoons“) drawn in Paris in the late fifteenth century,[1] The suite, on display in the Musée du Moyen-Âge, is often considered one of the greatest works of art of the Middle Ages in Europe. Five of the tapestries are commonly interpreted as depicting the five senses – taste, hearing, sight, smell, and touch. The sixth displays the words “À mon seul désir“. The tapestry’s meaning is obscure, but has been interpreted as representing love or understanding. Each of the six tapestries depicts a noble lady with the unicorn on her left and alion on her right; some include a monkey in the scene. The pennants, as well as the armor of the Unicorn and Lion in the tapestry bear the arms of the sponsor, Jean Le Viste, a powerful nobleman in the court of King Charles VII.

Spirit of the Unicorn/Lady

It stands for purity; even chastity-yet sensuous and sinfulness

Light and Hope although sometimes Darkness and Despair

Coveted and pursued by man, but only humbled by a woman.

Strength of the nurturing healing power, contained in one hand on the horn.

He bows down, ever proud, still unable to resist the (pheromones) essence of the woman.

I will resist the URGE…hummm interesting….this writing may be too explicit for this forum  …I’ll think about this.

RT /JE – You don’t know about me because I have too many animals. Because of my dogs, cat, hamster, fish…Because I like antique or old real furniture (not modern) . Because I don’t have a butt that sticks out far enough for you. Because I don’t have a job and you have a perfect credit score. Because cute girls have problems . Because you say I’m a flirt and I talk to people. Because I’m spoiled. 

You don’t know about me, well I don’t know about you either because you’re too worried about what other people think!  Because you’re not satisfied with the way I am which tells me you’re not satisfied with the way you are. Because you need to lose weight you think I do too.  Because you believe that money can buy you love (not yours of course). Because you would make me dinner IF you had a kitchen or WE had a kitchen together. Because you can’t climb over a baby gate to get your own drink or plate

Yeah you can go,..not for me anyway. Silly boy, I was just checking you out as well.  Funny how guys think they are so slick.  Who was using who for what?  No one uses me with out my permission.

RT A grown man told me this and I of course being me…repeated back to him what he said to make sure I understood him correctly. “Your philosophy is that if a girl asks you to buy her a drink, you’ll say no cause she asked or can’t afford to buy her own. Is she doesn’t ask or even offers to buy you a drink, you’ll buy her one because she can afford it. What kinda shit is that? So you will only deal with those or spend your money on someone who does not need it or any help. That does  not make  sense to me: (..but I see where you are coming from).

So lets go back to the beginning: 1/23/04 LOVE ME NOW

Love me right now, when I’m down and feeling low. You can bring me up; make me high. Instead you can’t deal with it and gotta go. Have to go to work,save your money so a house you can buy.

Love me right now, while I don’t have a job and things are not financially tight. If you helped me now, you’d feel like a trick and that wouldn’t be right.

Love me right now. when I’m das and I’m crying and about to go over the edge. All you can say is be quiet, don’t cry, STOP.

LOVE

ME

RIGHT

NOW. OR

LATER!!!

Large Jornal 1999

Let’s move on to an older journal that is very full of musings, poems, thoughts etc,  This one was included in a gift basket I won/bought from a silent auction in 1999.  I do so love those….silent auctions, April Journal A journal that I still have and treasure from my sistah, Alice Myrick. A few pages seem to be missing..torn out of the journal…from the breakin? IDK Real Men DO Real Things…not just talk the talk. Duplicity, Triplicity. Double Cross There are two or three sides to every story and one of them is not the truth. The other one is his opinion and the remaining one is hers. LOSING GROUND. Cresent Moon La Luna, La Sun, Gods and Goddesses, Women and Men So as a part of my New Year’s Resolutions and Goals, I am to transcribe all my journal writings from paper to electronic..I’ll start with the  one from 2002 a lovely little journal from my dear friend, a sister really, Alice.  She gave me this for my birthday April 14 of 2002.   Here is the first page: Just listen to what I have to say- I love you, even though I don’t want to I miss you, whenever you’re not near me. I want you, every time you touch me. It’s funny because I don’t even remember WHAT this was about…maybe it was not a person per se, but the idea of that ideal person. The one who knows me and I can feel comfortable enough with to lose control. IDK It may have been that it was the first time I really trusted someone and lost control..made that BIG COMMITMENT and well…I didn’t want to end it or got…I wanted it right…but a woman’s gotta do what a woman has to do! Falling in Love is like cooking bacon in a skillet. The pot needs to be hot. Put in the bacon and let it sizzle and pop. Watch out you could get burned..and now I’ll add to this thought and say It smells and tastes so good. The aroma and anticipation of taking that first bite. Reflection: I musta been hungry…and yeah, I’m hungry now.

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