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Enumeration of LOVE
Why would I let you count the waysWhen you’ve already claimed that you are not good at math And this my dear is dang near quantum physics
So convoluted that the greatest thinkers of our time and times past have not dared to define nor have calculated this simple four letter word
You never promised me more than you could give except for when you spoke about giving your heart
As I told you mine was held in isolation on standby and When you pledged fidelity and lied right to my face
I saw my dignity lower her gaze to the left and tilted her chin as she shook her head negatively No way there will be no more regrets
You could have been the one but that ship has sailed on a solo journey We converged on our paths but I was already gone But I had hoped
For I was soon to be Far away from this place of alligators and mosquitos Where both were tolerated with a shrug I was not destined to be here this long
Because my DESTINY lay far Away from the South The Western Pacific whispered so sweet and softly…
“Alexandria…
Come home Love”
I’ll show you the majesty of mountains, volcanoes and Crater Lake. The wildness of the Pacific Ocean
Crashing fierce waves against the cliffs Ever aware of the rouge waves And the stars will twinkle brighter You’ll see the Moon and Sun
Rising and setting with more clarity as the celestial bodies lovingly illuminate and share the skies above
I was always good at math and I see patterns and calculate everything and I saw the dots connect
In truth you could come to me wherever
I remembered how it feels to BE LOVED And know that and feel that in my bones and very SOUL
I can recall vividly the time when you touched me and I felt it twice
I will wait for you patiently to come again and stay forevermore That my blessed one is called the Enumeration of Love
Do you see it? Can you imagine it?
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X y Betwixt and Between (Beltane, summer is here)
I saw the energy before I felt it
All the street lights had halos
La Luna smiled her crooked lopsided smirk
And I remembered that I knew about
The energy
I felt it before
That Yin and Yang gracefulness
As the wind caresses my skin
So softly as only my true lover knows how to do
The gathering of baby crickets Jumped across the wall in a rhythm
As the birds tweeted questions and others trilled back answers The sky went thru it’s metamorphosis
From darkness to light
As I witnessed the divinity as the voyeaur in me felt a white hot desire
Everything has a definitive clarity and especially myself
I knew this to be true and the Southern Hemisphere had me off balance
Why was I acting like the lost stepchild that seemingly didn’t belong? I was created for this very moment of esoteric knowing
Do not falter in your faith
Or stumble too much on this path to everywhere
Behold and BE present in Paradise
Rejoice in the infinite wonder of this World
All the synergies and algorithms are in plain sight and I was always counting numbers and seeing patterns
It was another test and the process of elimination as well as deciphering the probable was second nature
It’s elementary but
Why was it so much harder to see?
I needed more clarity I see the light even in darkness there is a glowing energy
I feel the magnetic field, gravity and am acutely aware Of the space time continuum Of linear and spherical East and West
North and Sourh
Earth, Air, Fire and Water
I am Betwixt and Between
Heaven on Earth
Fatality and immortaliy
And the flesh of my flesh energizes me
My cerebellum is stimulated and my body springs into action
Still
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DV- Stop, Reset
B etter
A t
D oing
B eing
I n
T otal
C ontrol
H onestly
The instilled bigotry, racism and misogyny is evident in your behavior . It’s not okay to threaten, holler, curse, assault and make disparaging accusations.To make a house not a home but into a building of dread and instability. A place where the enemy is someone who says they love you. I’m sorry does not begin to describe or assuage the pain and damage you’ve inflicted.It really doesn’t matter anymore that
you don’t or won’t remember, we do.
The alcohol abuse and substance abuse exacerbated the ignominy that pours out of your mind and from your lips. And the lava of contempt erupts from your mouth, those words once spoken cannot be taken back.
I’ll take three steps towards love and the light
Obliterate the dark cloud. We will be outside your circle of despair. With laughter and joy as our spears, using intelligence and strength as our defense..
We restock the stack.
As the scales of justice weigh and calibrate to judge you. As the karmic echoes resonate so loudly that you cannot think, eat or sleep. With every step you take that makes my child afraid and
with each and every tear we cried from years gone by.
We bind together she and I And we have others who stand beside, behind and all around us. We protect our future and the precious generation(s) to come. We stand our ground firm and expand our territories. And
in this new home we will thrive. 
We turn the bad into a positive And we neither speak nor hear the words of regret. We fast forward to a bright future. We use the Golden Key to open that door.
Betwixt and Between V I I I (that’s why)
From: Alexandria Lexa Credo Darnes <a_credodarnes@yahoo.com>
Date: November 23, 2015 at 9:24:11 PM EST
To: Lexa Credo Darnes <lexacredo@gmail.com>
Subject: Fwd: Betwixt and Between
That’s WHY!
Rewind to a previous version. And obliterate the feelings of contention that period brings. Using my one charm bracelet as a talisman, I wave my hand and make the sign of the cross, and you speak the words of remorse and regret, I’m sorry.
Fast forward to now and forget all that. It’s past tense. It’s a new beginning again and meanwhile, I’m currently standing with one foot in the water and one in the sand. I walk between Earth and Water. I fly between Heaven and Hell. I savor ecstasy and normalcy. As I stand beneath the stars, I whisper no matter what happens, I will love again.
And he will love me like no other As deep as the Mariana Trench to unknown depths and then resurface, while the Sun still shines and dries the saltiness on our skin.
Unfaltering secure we ride the waves.Rolling with the ebb and tide just going with the flow of events. As one with the motion, we dance the divine Tango. Flying free to heights so high. It’s so cold and beautiful. The oxygen becomes thin and it’s hard to breathe.
But we can and we do. And yet there are moments that I still hold my breath and eventually exhale slowly and purge the negativity. The animosity you contrived to justify cause you were hurt by Love still reverberates. You were intoxicated and nigh remember. And the echoes are barely there, they are fading fast, You’ve crossed the line so many times, betrayal is expected and anticipated. So you fulfill your own prophecy of doom and start that 3 year itch.
One day we’ll say that we were just afraid, we weren’t ready. But when we do wake (and we will awaken) we will shed our fearsome dreams.When we truly appreciate this Paradise, there is nothing denied to us.For we are created to Be Loved. And Love.
Conversely when passion is high.some stumble and fall hard. To the other side. Like a baby, you do not know what to do. You go to a dark place where your kind of love becomes lust and animosity And misogyny is like your second nature. You hurt because you were hurt And the cycle begins again. But it’s different this time. You keep hurting people but this to will be reversed. They will know JOY
Around up and down the wheel goes. And yet,the Sun will rise and set.The November full moon will rise in full glory today and in times between she will smile that crescent smile. Growing larger as it goes thru its phases and the perspective from the apogee to the the perigee change the way it appears.
The planets will orbit in elliptical patterns. And sacred geometry will become clearer.
The patterns are not a redundancy nor are they random. it’s all an algorithm to be understood And there are anomalies like the rivers that flow North instead of South. Reversing the normalcy but somehow making the balance even. There are exceptions to certain rules and we will be inviolable to your contemptuous slander, the bursts of rage as well as your finger pointing accusations. The time of reckoning comes nearer. And I stand between elation and sadness. Relief and anxiety. Love and Hate. The course is set and I make the journey, step by step. I stand betwixt and between, however I still stand.
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Daydreaming – the bird and the butterfly
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Begin forwarded message:
From: Lexa Credo <lexacredo@gmail.com>
Date: October 31, 2015 at 1:28:07 PM EDT
To: “a_credodarnes@yahoo.com” <a_credodarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Fwd: Daydreaming-The Bird and the Butterfly
———- Forwarded message ———-
From: Alexandria Lexa Credo Darnes <a_credodarnes@yahoo.com>
Date: Saturday, October 31, 2015
Subject: The Bird and the Butterfly
To: Lexa Credo Darnes <lexacredo@gmail.com>
The Bird and the Butterfly
Soared and fluttered by
Today and made me smile
What a beautiful day it is
Another day in Paradise
Sunshine blue skies fill my eyes
And a Light Breeze caresses my skin
Cooling the heated kisses
Bestowed from the warmth of the Sun
Upon my restless body
The clear water from the tepid pool
After several laps
Dries drop by drop
As my soaking wet bikini steams dry
I close my eyes
And daydream…
Of a LOVE so strong it Lasts
A lifetime and eternally
That transcends the earthly realm
To someplace divine
And we know we are wanted
When you are touched by this Love
You know unconditionally
That we are made for desire
As we are earthbound in our skin
Passionate boundaries can be crossed
When we take this particular journey
And I will go on this trip with you
Purposely with open minds
Fanning the flame of the knowledge
There is another dimension
A place where we just feel
Nothing else matters
In that time and space
But you and me
Breathing touching melding
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Sent from Lexa’s GMobile
Sweet Summertime
Oh the sweet warm summer rain
It calls to me softly
With a rhythm that makes my soul sway
And fills my mind with wet day dreams
As a soft breeze partners with the palm trees
and they too dance
The grey cloud that let loose the moisture reminds me
Of storms passed likened to a rolling like thunder
Loud and strong
Trembling and shaking the very Earth
And my eyes flashed lightning
As I was blinded with bright
Feeling each moment between the lightning and the thunder
Ecstatic that the storm is here
..right here
in side
Sent from Lexa’s iPhone
WTF
I have decided to start another blog. Anonymous. Having to do with sensual and possibly sexual and of an erotic or “natural instints” about my nature and my nuture. To tell it like I see it and express those inner thoughts that I/we sometimes think however hardly ever share, and never act upon? Its the differnce between thinking something and actually doing it. Is the fantasy better than the reality? Well it depends on several factors and there are tons of variables. But I do know the difference between whats right and whats wrong. Or do I? Yes I definitely know what is right or wrong for me. And I learn from my mistakes and always always always enjoy my LIFE. For it is mine and I treasure it. I ponder my past experiences and miss and contemplate my loved ones whose lives are over or at least not in this dimension. They have crossed over. No longer physically here but here in spirit. My Grandmother, my Father, my Mother and
The Sun, Moon and Stars
just recently my Sister are deceased. And I miss them and think of them often. I know of their regrets because they told me. And a long time ago I vowed to try and live without regrets.
Wait For Me Sister
Wait for me Sister
My steps are way to small
Wait for me Sister
I’m nowhere near that tall
Wait for me Sister
I’m gonna spill my cup
Wait for me Sister
And help me clean it up
Wait for me Sister
I want to go with you
Wait for me Sister
Now what are we gonna do?
Wait for me Sister
I’m scared of the dark
Wait for me Sister
Please take me to the park
Wait for me Sister
I cannot run that fast
Wait for me Sister
My love will always last
Wait for me Sister
Until I go to sleep
Wait for me Sister
I smile then I weep
Wait for me Sister
You taught me how to laugh
Wait for me Sister
Your halo and your staff
Wait for me Sister
You’ve gone into the light
Wait for me Sister
I’ll come to you by night
Lexa loves Lola
Love lasts forever
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My Sister
A_credodarnes@yahoo.com
A Celestial Smile
Sent from Lexa’s iPad
Begin forwarded message:
From: Alexandria CD
Date: September 21, 2014 at 7:52:43 AM EDT
To: “lexacredo@gmail.com”
Subject: Celestial smile
The moon in its apogee smiled at me
And the nearest star to it blinked and then winked
I was not sure if the cosmos were coaxing me out
Of the melancholy mood and seemingly chemical imbalance
Or durant derriere, the very universe was mocking
For who was I to be so important that the moon and stars in the sky
Would show me favor and a significant sign of happiness
That realization that the Sun aphelion was temporary and soon it would shine brighter
And warm my heart and skin once again
In the time of the autumn equinox and another lunar eclipse
Coming with the full waxing of October’s Hunter Moon
The alignment at the turn of the seasons was harder to fathom
This far south in the humid heat of this so called Sunshine State
However much I love the cumulonimbus clouds in the sky
As I search those different types of cover for the answers in the daytime
Its the night sky that speaks softly and whispers specific terms of endearment
And even as the acrid rainfall baptizes my soul as it dilutes my saline tears
Washing away my apprehension and replacing it with anticipation
I stroll unhurriedly as the stars in a dark velvet sky give way to a lighter shade of blue
As the Lunar acquiesces to the Helios when it changes from darkness to light
And visa versa, the calumniators of one who says they care really do not matter
For it is their type of selfish love that will make you appreciate
The Eternal Beloved’s Reign
The Angels Message
A Paramours Gaze
Paradise on Earth
Life and Light
Darknesses Infiniteness
Heart Beats
Smile for me
And a Celestial Smile
Sent from Lexa’s iPad
Betwixt IV
Mirrored images Ii
———- Forwarded message ———-
From: Alexandria CD
Date: Thursday, February 26, 2015
Subject: Betwixt IV
To: “lexacredo@gmail.com”
I stood between Love and Hate
I contemplated murder
And anger overtook my thoughts
While to darkness i surrendered
In retrospect I knew this place had been here many times
It was not really comfortable but I fell into its rhythm and rhyme
The acid burned inside of me my blood it boiled
Adrenaline pumped into my body and my brain
I could see nought but the color red
The darkness had me blind
As I was consumed with bad thoughts
that contemplated vengeance. I almost lost my mind
However reason won and I came back
This vessel was created by love for love
Moi au natural
Betwixt IV
The Angels that stand all around me
Showed me signs of beauty that brought tears to my eyes
The wrongs I write will tell the tale and release the beast
And turn her into a creature of beauty who prophecies
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